in which I am apologetic

Dear lovelies:
I am sorry. My blog hasn't been this neglected, in, well, weeks I suppose. Even now I keep trying to pull myself away from the computer to spend time with le husband, and I keep thinking of just one more thing that needs to happen tonight. Projects right now include:
  • first ever boudoir shoot happened on Saturday. Um, luscious. I wish I could share the images, and maybe a few, eventually. For now, trust me on this one: fantastico.
  • I'm trying to coordinate a Help-Portrait event in our area on December 4. Which happens to be the day before we drive down to Key West for a week. Lots of details, and I've really no idea what I'm doing.
  • Headed to Ohio this week for Thanksgiving. Yay for time with J's family! We actually are celebrating again on Sunday when we get back with MY family, and have I mentioned that they are all fantastic cooks? Which bodes well for swimsuit-wearing, let me tell you.
  • Actually taking vacation in about two weeks. WooOOOoooo! This is kinda a big deal, because for J and I to take off time from work and NOT spend it with family, um, never happens. The overnight trip to NYC this year? That was the last time it happened. And the last time we spent multiple nights away from home just relaxing? Three years ago. Oh yes. (Thankfully my camera has improved since then. And my skills behind it.)
  • Oh! If you don't follow me on facebook or twitter you won't have seen this: the photographer posted some pictures from my sister's wedding and they're AMAZING. Lovelove. I really need to do a post about all the awesome that went into that shindig, but let me just say: the most expensive part of her outfit were the perfect shoes. And no, they didn't come that color. Dye, baby.
  • Coming tomorrow on my photography blog: a photo shoot for attack cat band that I am SUPER excited about and can finally share. YES.
Erg. I'm sorry this is so disjointed, my dears. Hopefully things will fall into place this week. Or, you know, not. It's all good.


self-portrait day

week 31

project 52, week 31
Yesterday I was a slacker. I photographed a church service in the morning, went to lunch with friends, and proceeded to spend the rest of the afternoon just spending time with my husband. I read, he watched some show. We snuggled with our respective pets, and I didn't sit down at my desk until the sun was long gone and the house was getting chilly.
This may seem like a small thing, but for me it's a big deal. A day of free time, hours without commitments, and I'm not working? This feels wrong somehow. Even when I'm caught up on work that has to be done, there's always about 5 more projects that I need to do, skills I need to master. And yet...sometimes it's more important to spend time with those you love.
I'm trying to find the balance. So far, it's not going so well.



Today I had four hours in the car by myself so I got to think a lot, and I worked on some ideas and goals for next year. The thing that keeps coming back to me: "ten years from now am I going to think I've slacked? Am I going to wish I'd worked harder? Am I doing all I can?"
And then on the other hand I rolled around all the crazy dreams I have, and thought about taking the leap to make them happen, and I was scared.
I haven't decided anything yet, for the record. I'm not content, however, with maintaining the status quo. And then tonight I read this blog post, and it resonated. Particularly this bit:

On the other hand, if you know in your belly that doing all of these things will change the world (or even how the world sees you), then it is money well spent. Moreover, if all you care about is incremental change (read: incremental growth), almost by definition you will miss the forest for the trees.


in case you need a little bit of color in your day

I'm uploading this at a fairly large size so you can use it for whatever you want. Taken yesterday afternoon in Easton, as I wandered around with Mr. Man. I love ginko trees.


getting started on the Christmas shopping

I ran across Untamed Menagerie while looking for something else on Etsy, and OHMYWORD. Love. I saved this to post today, because I most certainly did some Christmas shopping there, and I wanted the items to disappear from the shop. But seriously: just one of those gorgeous necklaces will add the perfect touch to any outfit. I've listed some of my favorites below, but they really have tons of gorgeous stuff. Check them out. (All images property of Untamed Menagerie.)


wednesday wonderfulness

This is going to be short; I'm scrambling to get caught up on stuff this week. Also: I got to talk to the husband today for the first time since Friday! He'll be home soon! Yay!
Ok, that was longer than I thought. Mwah to all! Not much more happening this week, I think. I'm going to be busy celebrating my 5-year anniversary. (I KNOW! craziness, I say.)


self-portrait, again

project 52, week30

project 52, week 30 (Also: OH YES I JUST DID A SHADOW PHOTO. SO SUE ME.)
People tend to think I'm an extrovert, because I'm friendly and like to talk to people. But really, deep inside, I'm an introvert. I can only handle so many people before I want to crawl in a hole and take a nap.
So some days, the thought of getting a bunch of friends together and going to Punkin Chunkin and "having fun" just makes me tired. So on days like that I take my camera and myself and spend an hour being anonymous, hidden behind the lens.
And that reminds me why I don't do it more. For me, photography is about connection. The anonymity of hiding yields me nothing worth showing to anyone.
I need to remember that.